Resistance bulldozed her way into my life about four months ago. Actually, she’d been around a lot longer than that, but it was about mid-August when I said enough was enough and decided to take her on.
You know how it is, you have a goal whether personal or professional and you’re gung ho on the project and then you get that feeling – one that can stop you in your tracks. In this case I had some big jobs to tackle and she kept knocking at my door in the middle of my momentum.
Now don’t get me wrong, Resistance, like any other feeling is welcome especially when she yells an intuitive no and it is clear as a bell that I better not continue down whatever path I’ve been traveling. On the other hand, sometimes she can get in the way of things.
For the past quarter of a year she’s been kicking up a storm, throwing tantrums now and again and playing games that I’ve felt have been decidedly unfair, like when she brings her best friend Anxiousness over to play in the middle of the night.
But, I sit at the head of my table, not Resistance and so I kept on doing the work, day after day, week after week and month after extended month. I wondered, at times, if I should keep going.
Three things I learned from my recent encounters with Resistance, she:
1) loves acknowledgement, but too much attention is a problem for her so don’t get too attached.
2) likes to dress up in costume and can mimic other feelings rather well.
3) is worth getting to know and can give some valuable insights.
I’m grateful Resistance stopped by and spent the latter part of the year with me and those projects of mine? I’m almost completely done.
What have you done when Resistance has knocked on your door?
– Mary
Edited 5/31/22 for clarity and to remove an image.
